Archive | August, 2011

balance.

5 Aug

bal·ance/ˈbaləns/

Noun: An even distribution of weight enabling someone
or something to remain upright and steady.
Balance. A word I love to use in my vocabulary, however, seldom use in my actions or priorities. I’ve come to the conclusion that I am an extreme person. Instead of working hard at the even distribution of weight part, I tend to make a makeshift object in my life to keep the things in my life upright and steady. Who am I kidding, I’m no craftsman, but I have become pretty good at settling for the quick and easy fixes in my life. I side on ‘going all out’ in most areas of my life which brings a lack of focus and attention to others and my life gets out of whack.
I’m the kind of person that will see a commercial on TV about orphans in Africa, ball my eyes out and then vow to quit my life here, look up plane tickets to Africa, google a orphange and plan my escape route out of the life I lead here. Then, when the next morning comes and my life is unaffected by the emotions that took place the night before, I continue on my routine instead of make any practical efforts of being the change I wish to see in the world.
I’m also the kind of person whom encounters a problem in life, who is too stubborn to admit my own stubbornness, that I take the weight of the world on my shoulders and disregard the rest of my life until the said problem is fixed…even if it’s not my problem at all.
Evenly distribute weight. Easier typed than done. If I’m not living 6 nights a week in the gym, then I’m 6 nights at work or 6 nights investing into my relationships instead of evenly balancing out them all. It’s almost as if there’s a voice in my head that tells me if I want to see results I have to commit my life to that one focus until I’ve accomplished my goal.
Well, I’ve come to the conclusion, that that voice sucks! That voice makes me miserable, unsuccessful, burnt out, tired and overworked. I think about the things I value, the things I want to be and have balance in; being a good daughter, a good friend, a good servant, a good employee, a good girlfriend, a good sister, a good granddaughter, a good person. That is what I want to have balance in.
I don’t know how Paul did it (Paul from the bible, not Paul you’re ‘possible’ friend, neighbor or acquaintance, unless he too is like Paul from the Bible, than yes, group him in here); being all things to all people (1 Cor. 9:19-23). I suppose one of the 817 differences that Paul and I might have (yes, its possible there could be slightly more) is that he learned the art of balance in his life. It’s encouraging to know/read that he wasn’t always a balanced person though. Spending the first part of his life persuing the extreme persecution of any and all christians, a few days without the light of day (literally) not only changed his focus & mission in life, but taught him balance of being and doing what he was called to.
Balance, I’m learning, doesn’t have to be done necessarily alone and in some aspects of my life it’s reassuring to know that those I surround myself with can (if I would stop being so stubborn and let them) help evenly distribute the weight and help keep those things I value from falling; being unbalanced. To be completely honest, I live my life right now equivalent to how I treat a skateboard. I jump on, gain my balance for a split second, get too cocky and attempt a move I have never been taught, nor meant to do.
I’m not sure where the whole skateboard analogy came from. I’d like to blame it on the fact that its late and I’m tired, but if you’ve read any other post on my blog, I bet the analogy didn’t even phase you. Or, chances are, you are envisioning this clumsy, blonde girl (who always talks a big game) on a skateboard challenging the skater boy from Avril Lavigne’s song to an alley-oop contest. (wow, seriously…I need some sleep, but if it helps, she only came to mind because I saw her on tv talking about her new clothing line) No, I know that didn’t help.
Oh balance, someday soon you will be so much more than just a word I long for….
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ketch-up.

5 Aug

It’s been about 5 months since my last blog, so I thought I’d play a quick game of ketchin up (yes, I know it’s spelled catching up…that NU diploma doesn’t sit in a drawer in my desk for nothing people!). 5 months have come and gone and while I struggle to figure out if they’ve gone by fast or slow, I’ll save you the battle in my head and digress regardless.

By the way, I miss blogging (blogging about things other than burgers, that is!) and because I’m so OCD, I can’t continue to blog out-of-order, thus the recap of the last 5 months. I know, ridiculous, but just let it happen.

March-

Wedding Madness (no, not mine…hold your horses people). My brothers! Other than the wedding being utterly perfect (and freezing), I came out of the ‘experience’ with a sister! A sister (might I add, “well, sure Jenn..it’s your blog”) who is about the greatest sister I could ask for! Not only does she put Martha Stewart to shame (as if she already wasn’t), but she has become my much-needed cohort in continually proving my brother wrong in any and all circumstances ;). Plus, the 6 hour drive with Jake (including the ‘memorable’ stop to Cabella’s) where we didn’t end up killing each other proved to be a good point in our relationship!

March also rolled in Jackson’s 4th birthday and Bennett’s 1st birthday, which was just another piece of evidence that time is flying by too fast!

And, if change didn’t happen already in March, I rounded out the month by moving in with Jeremy & Amy into a cute little (big) 3-story town-home in (what I will FOREVER refuse to call Washougal) Camas. Other than the initial 5 lbs I gained from Amy’s ‘defiantly worth-it’ cupcakes, living there has been so much fun!

April-

April, is what I (now looking back on it) will refer to as “the calm before the storm”. April is where I should have valued every slow moment, every lazy day, every bit of boredom I could gather because little did I know, life was about move faster than I could follow. April was spent celebrating my favorite mom’s birthday, kicking my butt in the gym on behalf of the wonderful Angie Lewis & Advocare and spending Easter with 22 members of the loudest family a girl could ask for.

May-

May lied. It didn’t bring flowers, but in fact brought floods and showers. However it did start off pretty good by celebrating Jake’s birthday in which I made him open far too many gifts on a random street in Portland where cats came out of nowhere and men roamed the streets having the most random conversations. This all came about after we had the world’s spicyest “salad” from one of our favorite hole in the wall restaurants, Pok Pok.

Next came the celebratory engagement of my one and only fathers birth (sounds more extravagant then “my dad’s birthday” huh?). Man oh man, I just love that guy! If I remember right, we spoiled him with a hybrid golf club, which I hear is something great…who knows, the “golf obsession” has yet to hit me yet.

Then came another party for the newlyweds, Jeremy & Amy, as we invited all our friends and family who couldn’t make the trip to the wonderful world that is Canada.

Following shortly after that fun shindig came the SOME Awards, in which our use of social media for brothers (the new restaurant we were opening) was nominated for an award. Accompanied by my trooper of a boyfriend (who proved to be, yet again, a perfect match when we were abruptly thrown on the red carpet (seriously) with photographers everywhere and we both just looked down and walked as fast as we could down the entrance) where we mingled with social media guru’s and sat through the awards ceremony emcee’d by Daniel Baldwin. Walking out with out award, we did however leave with quite the experience (which might be another story for another day).

With work piling up higher than I could reach, deadlines coming and going faster than I could achieve some of them, I checked out mentally and physically and hopped on a plane to Hawaii for Toby & Tandra’s wedding. Melissa might have been my perfect vacation partner as we spent our days on the beach and our nights drinking the most delicious pina colada’s. Tandra’s wedding was perfect (other than a few, now humorous, altercations) and the vacation was at the perfect time!

May wrapped up with a cap and gown on the cutest little pre-schooler you ever did see, Mollie 🙂 Hands down, might just be the most entertaining little 5-year-old on a stage.

June-

June is a blur. As we geared up for the opening of brothers (which I won’t dive into here because my last 5 months have been spent writing its own blog www.90daystodelicous.com) I somehow managed to fit in; Olivia’s dance recital, fun date nights at the zoo, Monday night family nights (where we “forced” the boys to watch The bachelorette), a Tim McGraw concert, the purchase of a shiny red car and showering Erin with cute girly gifts in anticipation of Nola Grace’s arrival!

July-

www.90daystodelicious.com. There you will find my life during the month of July.

Phew! Feels good to ketch-up and start “new” and continue on to blogging about all things random instead of burgers and business, although those topics may randomly flow from my fingertips at times too. And now onto August, where the Lovelace family will welcome baby Nola (man is she in for a lifetime of spoiling!), Jake and I will celebrate 1 year of not killing each other (someone should throw that man a party for sticking it out with me for 365 days, that deserves some kind of trophy…), Jones will turn 9 and all the more smarter than I and I will enter the 26th year of my life which will hopefully be full of continued adventure & memories than the past 25.

Until my next random thought…